It's Alright, It's Okay

Thursday, August 02, 2012

I've been doing a lot of thinking lately about where I am in my life.

And you know what?

It's not that bad.

I know I've mentioned my issues with jealousy and feeling inadequate, but I really feel like I'm doing a lot better not letting those feelings get  to me.  I'm always telling everyone they need to have a better attitude, but then I realized that my own attitude kind of sucked.  Hypocrite, party of one.

Now I'm starting to see the silver lining in things.

So we don't have a house?  We don't need a house.  It's just us; we don't have any kids yet. Yeah, it might be nice to have a big yard for Archie, but right now, it's worth it to have all our appliances already there and to be able to call someone when something goes wrong.  Renting gives us time to really learn to budget and save, and to work at building up our credit so a bank will actually give us a mortgage.

So I can't get pregnant?  Well, at this particular moment, we can't really afford a child, so the lack of baby isn't necessarily a bad thing.  I'd like to be able to provide the best life I can for any children we have, and I'd really love to have a house before we have a baby (although I'm okay if it doesn't quite work out that way).  Plus not having a baby means that we have the freedom to do more, like maybe actually getting to take the honeymoon we've never had.  And as much as I'd love to have a period just to know that my body's actually working properly, it is kind of nice not having to deal with it.

There are a lot of things happening right now that I'm really excited about (there will be more on those things later), and I think it feels so much better to just be happy about that :)

Life isn't a competition, and I'd do well to keep that in mind.

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  1. You're a wonderful person, Alex! you're going to have all you want in life and more. :)

  2. Great post! Sometimes it is tough to see the silver lining.

    1. Thanks Ashlee!!! It's definitely tough sometimes, but it's something I really try to work at.



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