An Uncertain Future/Provera Update

Monday, September 01, 2014

Happy Labor Day, everyone!

Today is my last day of taking Provera, and I'm pretty relieved. It hasn't been too bad, but I have been having some symptoms I don't remember having the last time I took it (after my hysterical pregnancy three years ago -- I think I only took it for a week then) .

-I've been really crampy

I've been very thankful that cramps aren't something I've had to deal with often, but they've been happening a lot in the past week, and it hasn't been very pleasant. I have one now as I type this. To all the ladies who, unfortunately, have cramps regularly, I am SO sorry that you have to go through this.

-I've been very emotional
I've been a little snappy, and I've been very prone to being upset. I posted Thursday on the Facebook page that I was sobbing to Taylor Swift.

Yup, pretty much.

Friday, I had an absolutely awful day, and I ended up being really moody until around 11:30, when I decided to watch cartoons (such a grownup, I know, but I was catching up on the new season of Gravity Falls, which is FANTASTIC).

-I've been insanely hungry
That sums it up pretty well.

I was a little concerned, because I started a period on Thursday (it's thankfully fading away now), and I didn't know if it would affect the clomid (I was able to speak to a very rude nurse Friday, so that helped clear things up). That could have contributed to some of the symptoms too, of course, though they were appearing before the period started. My body's so whack I don't know what to think about anything anymore.

Anyway, my period should be starting Wednesday or Thursday, so I'd start the clomid Friday or Saturday (I'm on a CD3-8 schedule). I'd go in the 24th or 25th for my progesterone check, and *fingers crossed* hopefully find out I'm pregnant by October.

If I do end up pregnant, I've been thinking a lot about what will happen to the blog. I've always felt like I didn't want to just become a mommy blogger once I'm pregnant, because there would be so many other aspects of me that aren't defined by the state of my uterus. I think I'd like to limit pregnancy posts to once a week, but I also can't say definitively what will happen until I'm actually in that situation. I'm not even pregnant yet, and with the publishing of this post, the majority of the posts on the front page of the blog involve pregnancy and/or my reproductive system, and that might be a little much. I know not many people still read my blog, but I totally understand if too much talk of babies and uteri gets to be too much and you need to take a break from me and my blog (I've taken plenty of breaks from the blog myself). I feel like I had a  lot more to say about this when I set out to write this post, but then Taylor Swift gifs happened.

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